and i feel like Rapunzel

Ever wondered what it feels like to be Rapunzel?
To be locked-up in a room, only out to clear your bowel?

Strangely enough, i could have been living in her lair
Albeit without the golden stair made from her hair

But one day, when i have amassed enough lecture notes
I'm gonna tie them together and throw out my window a rope

And off to freedom, only to realise with a thunk
It's EOS in 9 days, and stop reading this junk

senaiboy (1986-present)

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Yes i'm lame (hey, this is written in 5 minutes!). I blame it on the exam stress! Haha. Hope this brightened up your moody studying times, and at the same time 'motivate' you to study some more. Muahaha i'm eeebel i know :P

note to self: do not read older posts on this blog!

There should be a warning for myself not to read back on my archived posts.. i'm getting too nostalgic. Anyway the following will be thoughts of a nostalgic me. Most of the people who still read my blog won't understand haha.

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I miss Big Night Out. And overdosing on Pringles and Shandy and PS2.

I miss going out for movies. Followed by planting our asses in the cybercafe for longer than the movie we watched.

I miss playing basketball. Especially the ones when all of us still don't know how to play.

I miss our cybercafe sessions in college. Like the one we stayed until the dawn breaks, literally.

I miss 121D. What happens when you put 7+1 guys in a 3-room apartment? Not a single peaceful day passed by haha.

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I miss the days when i don't have to dread waking up each day to continue studying and thinking and worrying bout exams :(

ps - i realise .. my blogging style has changed from last time. When it used to be more of a diary of what happened, now it's more on my thoughts. Haha but if it stayed the same style as last time, it'll read like:

wake up. study. sleep. study. sleep. surf facebook. read blogs. download torrents. play games. chat on msn. surf and read blogs and surf and read blogs. oh-the-sun-is-rising-i-better-hit-the-beds. sleep. repeat.

Sigh.

do you remember me?

Have you ever lost contact with someone, and suddenly after years and years, you found him again?

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Feels weird. Everyone looked so different. Heh but i still could remember them.. most of them at least. Doubt they'll recognise me anyway. I think i changed the most.

Yes i should be studying for EOS which is 3 weeks away. But damn i've been browsing this site for hours. Found a few of my secondary classmate. Heck i even found one of my primary classmates. That's like someone i knew since, what, 15 years ago?

I'm amazed. At the same time, it struck me hard. It had been that long.

It has already been 2.5 years in IMU. We're soon going to part ways. I really don't want the same thing to happen. The same feeling that i just had. The same thought.

That i hardly know any of them anymore.

That when i messaged them on Friendster, i wonder if they would think, 'do i know this guy?'.

I know, i know. We make friends, we lose friends. Friends become strangers. Memories fade. Names slip your mind. You get dementia from Alzheimer's. It's inevitable. We do lead very separate lives after all. The only thing we had in common was our paths crossed in the past. And highly unlikely they'll ever cross again.

Still.. i guess it will be nice to know that your ex-classmates still remember who you are. Even if it's just your name. And they spelled it wrongly. Haha.

Which was why i messaged them anyway, knowing half of them only know my surname, the other half probably not even remember who i am.

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.. and it's nice to see that life has treated all of them pretty well :)

Slow Danceby David L Weatherford

Have you ever watched kids
on a merry-go-round
Or listened to the rain
slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music won't last

Do you run through each day
on the fly
When you ask "How are you?"
do you hear the reply?

When the day is done,
do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music won't last

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow
And in your haste,
not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
'Cause you never had time
to call and say "Hi"?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast
Time is short
The music won't last

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away...

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

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One of the poems that really wakes me up. Read it before some time ago, but recently circulated back to me again on a forwarded email.

Stop, breathe, and smell the flowers.

Happy studying guys :)

if only life is like a cassette.. and you could rewind and live it all over again

I wonder. Do you suddenly realise you've grown up or are we always growing up?

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Had a stiff back last Saturday. Stiff lower back to be exact. If i bend for too long, like sitting on a chair, i would have problem straightening my back afterwards. It hurts if i straighten too fast. Which made me end up bongkok (like i have kyphosis of my spine -.-) for like 15 seconds everytime i get my butt off the chair.

Shin Yin said i'm getting old. Haha. None truer words.

Getting better now. Though still a little stiff. Hope nothing serious bout it. You know, being a medical student made you think up of all the possibilities you might have everytime some part of your body goes wrong. For a second i feared i had vertebral collapse (Pott's disease, anyone?) -.-

I do feel old. Everytime i see someone's birth year starting with 199x, i get reminded of the fact that i'm not that young anymore. A one-nine-nine-zero baby would be sitting his/her SPM right now. That's someone 4 years younger than me and he/she is almost done with secondary school.

Not too long ago, a 1990 baby is still a kid who can't wait to catch his/her favourite show on Saturday.
Now, a 1990 baby is already looking forward to his/her date on Saturday.

I miss being young. I miss being so innocent and so carefree. Sigh.

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A lecturer talked to us last week bout rehabilitation. Then somewhere along, he mentioned that only a family member would have the patience to feed someone who's unable to feed themselves. A nurse/caregiver would probably be shoving spoonful of food into his mouth before he even chew the previous spoonful. Haha not dissing, just an example. Then again, not the nurse/caregiver's fault, as he went on, they're not only caring for that one patient and they don't have all the time in the world.

Reminds me of the time i was small. Grandma would sit next to me, feeding me spoonful after spoonful of dinner. While i was playing some console game, playing computer, running around outside, cycling around outside, or something.

And when she tried to urge me to eat the next spoonful while i was still chewing, i would get irritated (because that interferes with my intense concentration on playing some game). So childish. Haha.

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Just a while ago i heard crackling sounds in my left ear (which is a wee little bit deaf to high-pitched sounds), and i stuffed my finger into it, hoping what was causing the sounds would cease.

Don't ask me why, i got reminded of the times my Mom used to ask me to lie on her lap, and clean my ear with a cottonbutt. I was too small to use a cottonbutt myself then. I miss that. Haha.

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And it went on. I got reminded of the times Dad would bring me and my brothers to Holiday Plaza to stock up on our pile of pirated computer games. It has always been a 'big' event for us, coz fun in life was all bout video games at that time -.-. Haha. And when we couldn't find any games that our computer could support, we would rant and complain to him. Ungrateful kids :P.

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Sigh.

Being grown-up sucks. Not that i could say that since i'm not even working and paying for my own yet (and i'm in denial. i'm not grown up yet! :P).

But somewhere along the journey in life, i lost that carefree-ness and easily-impressed-ness of being a child.

Life became.. different.

Finding 'treasures' in the backyard doesn't seem fun anymore.
Chasing stray chickens around isn't filled with adrenaline.
Instead of wanting more computer games, now i just want more time to rest.
I used to wish time would speed up so i could watch the weekend cartoons, now i wished time would slow down and let me catch my breath.

I guess i did grew up.

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On a childish note, i'm SO going to get this!

Rock Guitar II [+/- click here].

And another for my brother! It's a PS2 guitar controller. To jam along in Guitar Hero on PS2.

Haha yes! I'm still a boy (inside at least) after all! :P

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And on a grave note, i'm so so so behind schedule. Sigh.

now, where's the panic button?

The REAL muggin' starts now.

CVS, Respi, Haemato, GI, Endo, Repro, Renal, MSK, CNS. 9 systems.

Over 300 lecture notes, from over 300 lectures spread out over 18 months.

7 weeks and counting down.

Now would be a good time to panic =)

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Frankly speaking, it is nothing less than daunting to me. If i were to stack up all the notes that i am supposed to have gone thru (and have the knowledge within in my head) by the end of this year, it could reach above my knees. Yeah.

And thru some really great planning by the higher powers, we would spent the rest of this year with our eyes glued to our lecture notes. Our final exams, EoS5 will be held from 31st December 2007 to 4th January 2008. I could already see the Christmas and New Year spirit gasping their last breath. Gotta love the schedule.

Good thing is, i've worked out my plan over the next 7 weeks.

Bad thing is, that's not gonna make mugging any easier.

Now if you will, excuse me while i lock myself up in my room and bang my head on the wall repeatedly pondering on the futility and helplessness of this whole situation.

Uh, i mean in my room studying. Sobs. Good bye, outside world!

you've got matched!

Finally, all we've studied so hard for the last 2 years has come.

The matching results were out last Thursday. Some were obviously happy with their matching, with shouts of joy. Some were okay with it, and just smiled silently. Some were quiet, and left without more than a word.

It kinds of taken me by surprise when i got the SMS from Rasyidah bout our matching results coming out that day. I wasn't ready for it, i didn't expect it. I didn't even know what to expect out of it, seriously.

My first choice was University of Adelaide, the only reason because it's the cheapest. Dad had really wanted me to try to get there after i couldn't transfer to Seremban or get into BMed Sc. Second was University of Dalhousie, which conversely, is where Shin Yin's going to, and where i had hoped (and thought) i would get. Third came University of Dundee, being the second cheapest in terms of total cost.

Everyone who heard of my choices will look surprised that i chose 3 different continents for my first 3 choices. Haha, the reason is i don't mind going to any country or uni actually, as long as my family could afford it and i could study there =).

I went, i queued, i received an envelope. Had wanted to open it slowly at home, but heck with it, i opened after i got it. And written on that piece of paper inside is where i'll spend the next 2 years of my life.

University of Dundee

Elated? Nope. Disappointed? Not that much. Just that i had thought i was going to get Dalhousie, planned to graduate there and take USMLE to try to get into US, hopefully. Now that i realise i'm heading towards a different continent altogether, the future i envisioned kind of get blurred. Where would i go after graduating from Dundee? Could i stay there and work or do i have to come back to Malaysia?

I guess i would worry bout that and re-plan my steps later. At least i got Dundee, which Dad was okay with since the fee's rather cheap. I'm only afraid of the living cost there with £1 = RM7. Damn, what am i gonna eat there? >.<

A little less bout me, most of the others are okay with their matching, though a select few somehow got lower than their 5th choice. Do hope if they want to appeal they would get a uni they'll prefer. But all in all, i'll say what others had said, it does not really matter which uni we get, as long as we work hard we'll still graduate as doctors =).

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Matching aside, yesterday we went to Italiannes, The Gardens for surprise birthday dinner of a great guy, with whom i've braved thru the hells of orientation with. 'Sharon Stone' aka Benjamin Ng Wei Liang. Lol. Yesh, i think only you saw my 'Marilyn Monroe' act lol. Stressfully funny times.. here's to you Ben, may your journey to Edinburgh and beyond be a smooth one =). Happy 22nd birthday Ben!

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ps - just to keep a note here of who's going where [+/- click here].

PMS 'family' members
Timothy - Adelaide, Australia
Chia Huan - Melbourne, Australia
Jeremy Nunis - Tasmania, Australia
Chui Han - Western Australia, Australia
Tze Chow - Otago, New Zealand
Mustaqim - Calgary, Canada
Jackie Liew - Aberdeen, UK
Benjamin Ng - Edinburgh, UK
Chee Mei - Edinburgh, UK
Ivy Ang - Edinburgh, UK
Prasad - Edinburgh, UK
Yew Wen - Glasgow, UK
Huilin - Liverpool, UK
Kee Fong - Manchester, UK
Jane June - Manchester, UK

Seremban 'family' members
Paul Kong
Wei Loong
Winnie Chong
Yih Seong

Fellow Dundee-ians
Hui Suan
Hwee Hong
Wai Kean
Zameer

pps - i tried to put up a list for all our PMS-bound batchmates on our batch blog. Do help fill it up =)

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Today is also the 15th month anniversary of something really important to me =)

so sick of being sick

This is the third time i've fallen sick. In a month. Considering that i'm sick for about 4,5 days each time, that means for half of the past month, my body had been invaded, battered and turned inside out by evil germs. It's no fun.

Had always thought of myself as rather healthy, rarely falling sick the past couple of years, albeit bitten by the bug once or twice in a few months. Which is why, most of the time when i DID fall sick, i would refuse to see a doctor. Just let the illness take its natural course and i'll be well in no time. What could a cold or flu or fever possibly do to me? Heh typical egoistical guy who thinks he can take every illness down by sheer willpower alone. It is statistically proven that men will only go to hospital when their illness has gotten severe. So.. blame my genes =P.

Anyway, 'sides from busy getting sick, i've been busy with other stuff lately as well since the last post. Of course, IMU Cup was over and done with, we won gold for Cheerleading and thus, won IMU Cup. Rather old news, and the ecstasy had already been dampened by the killer lectures of CNS anyway.

Not long after that was our week-long Raya holidays. Family came up during the weekend. Wanted to stay behind actually but Dad asked me to go back to see grandma. So i ended up back in Senai for a couple of days, before rushing back to KL to make my passport and hand in my Letter of Good Conduct forms. It was so short that i didn't feel like i've even been home. Then again, coming back to KL felt more like coming back home to me. I think i'm spending too much of my time here. Shucks.

Think it's getting too long. Or i'm getting too lazy. Haha. Shall postpone till next time, whenever that is. Laterz.

ps - Btw everyone, stop reading blogs and go practise CSU! Mock OSCE in 2 weeks still waste time online. Tak takut fail OSCE ke? Shoo go study!

short update

Dead blog.

Seriously, it's not that i didn't have free time to blog. I could afford to sleep 12 hours a day. It's not that i didn't want to blog. I have millions of things to write down. It's just that i don't feel like blogging anymore.

Haha but it's not just me.. from the long list of blog links on the left, 9 out of 10 hasn't been updated for more than a month. Maybe people do have better things to do than blog nowadays. Heh.

Anyway, update on the past months, just to keep my blog up-to-date for myself to look back maybe 10 years down the road. Wonder where i'll be by then hehe. Hey, me 10 years later. If you're living comfortably with a decent wage, you better remember what hell me right now is going thru and be grateful. Or envious. Haha. My thoughts are so incoherent now. Back to topic.

Selectives. 4 weeks of 'History of Medicine'. Besides getting to work with another cliche in my batch, nothing else bout it is even worth mentioning. Damn free days, damn boring classes, damn screwed up exam, a damn big waste of 4 weeks of my life. 'nuff said.

Pulau Perhentian 'family' trip. Was short but it was really great fun. Especially snorkelling and kayaking till we are roasted. Wait, that's all we did. Haha. Anyway thanks Chia Huan for going to all the trouble to organise =).

Musculoskeletal System, second last system. In-Course Assessment was last Friday. A little screwed up i guess. Thought i could remember the anatomy. Ended up doubting myself so much i changed my 'right' answers to the wrong ones. Sigh. Ah well.

IMU Cup 2007. Ending in 2 days. Tuesday will be the closing ceremony and last event, cheerleading. The only event i joined. I know i'll regret not joining anything else, but then again, i'm not good in any sports haha. More on cheerleading next time.

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Almost the end of September now. Soon we gotta hand in our choice of PMS. Soon we gotta sit for our finals. Soon we'll be out of IMU. Soon life will take a big change.

Being very sentimental, maybe that's why i never liked changes. I try to keep memory of everything, never wanting to forget something, or someone. I've always wished life would be the same, day after day. Yet change has this habit of slowly creeping up on you, and when you did realise, it is already here to stay.

Shucks.

don't go away, we'll return right after these messages ..

Blog on hiatus till the big big whirlwind of activities are over. Probably in a few more weeks' time. Or longer.

To be updated:-
Selectives
Pulau Perhentian 'family' trip
Sem 5 MSK
Hating Nasioncom
IMU Cup
Charity Run and Carnival
PMS Matching

a look on life (part II)

... continued from previous post

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Much like how my life has changed, and everyone around me. I woke up at 6am, and the first thought that ran thru my mind was how my parents had aged. They had been working their *** off ever since us 3 brothers were born. Probably even before. Just for a hope for a better education for us.

If not for Lee Foundation, i would not even be studying medicine. Typical chinese family, studying medicine seems like the greatest achievement a chinese can get. Haha. I guess we did made our grandma really proud for me and my brother to be on our way to become doctors. I still remember how she smiles each time i told her i got an A in an exams. That was the greatest reward for me each time.

How time has aged my grandma. I remember she was a rather plump woman years before when us 3 were still small. Now each time i got back, she seems to have lost more weight. She always say she didn't have appetite to eat much. Maybe it's because of her diabetes as well. The last time i was back, she had to sent her urine to check for microalbuminuria. Once it appears in the urine, it's a sign that the kidneys are beginning to fail. There is no 'cure', only delaying the inevitable kidney failure 5,10 years down the road. I didn't ask how the results was. I don't know if i really want to know.

Her eyesight wasn't getting better. Diabetic retinopathy. She's losing sensation in her feet. Diabetice neuropathy. She hasn't eaten anything even remotely sweet in years. Imagine eating bland food, drinks without sugar for the rest of your life. Occasionally she would get a sip of some soft drink, or just something sweet like a bite of ice cream. That's the only sweetness her tastebuds can taste. I know i shouldn't be letting her, but i can't bear to stop her.

Last time we were hyperactive kids running around outside the house and she would always chase us with a spoon of our dinner. Haha. Grandma had been the one taking care of us 3 brothers all the time while our parents went to work. Now, it is time for us to take care of her.

How time has aged my parents. From my first day in primary school, till now. They have always been there. The proudest moment i remember was in Standard 4, when i made a clean sweep of most of the trophies given for academic excellence. More than 10 i guess. Jeng Khay told me i beat him by just one trophy. Haha. They are all displayed on a big cabinet facing our house's front door. Typical chinese family. Haha.

Now years on, my parents were showing signs of the times. Wrinkles had started to show on their faces. My mum used to pluck her white hair, and everytime i would be eager to help her. That was like 5,6 years ago. She has since stopped plucking her white hair. There's just more and more of them. She's just dyeing her hair black every once in a while now.

Dad's hair is thinning. The last time i had my haircut at our ol' faithful barber, he told me my hair is just like my dad's, thinner on the crown, and when i get old my hair will bald like his. It was a shock to me, to know some day i will be bald. But then i realised, my dad's already there.

How time has grown me and my brothers up. We used to be kids playing Lego and Lasy together, roleplaying our numerous soft toys, fighting over who should play the computer. Ah the days of innocence. We are all grown up now, the youngest celebrating his 18th birthday in 3 months time.

Us 3 brothers have been separated from each other for a few years now, since i left home to study in college. The only way we communicate now is thru MSN. And i've been playing an online game with my younger bro these days. Guess that's the only way to bridge the distance.

As i woke up today, my mind was replaying the scene when my older brother crossed the checkpoint and left on his plane to Melbourne. I remember me, my younger brother, parents, and our relatives sending him off. As we lost sight of him past the checkpoint, we went to the viewing gallery and watch as his tram took him to the departure area.

Next year, my brother would have graduated. Then it will be my turn to be on the plane. In my mind i saw myself, carrying a big backpack, luggage in stow, walking towards the departure gate. I felt sad.

How time has made the distance between friends grow. What used to be close friends in primary, secondary school, now are just acquaintances. A few who are still close by stayed in contact, but those faraway were less and less heard. All of us are busy with our own things, and we gotta move on with our lives. Make new friends, lose old ones. Except i don't believe we really lose our friends. The only thing we lost is contact, but our friends are always there.

Soon, one of my closest friends, Wy Keat will be leaving for Edinburgh. He's already survived IMU Bukit Jalil, that lucky bastard. Haha. He's the guy who brought me beer on my 20th birthday. Made me drink and got my face red and everyone was laughing at me at my surprise party. Haha. I got another can of beer he gave in my fridge still. Though we don't really see each other much even in the same uni, soon i won't even get to see him for years. Man. Next year i won't even be seeing most of my friends in uni now. Sigh.

Some day before exams i got a nudge on MSN from someone i hadn't expected. Well, it was 5am in the morning. Haha. Both of us still hasn't slept yet, he finishing up his assignment, me studying at the last minute. The first time we ever chatted with each other since we left EC. He said i looked different. I'll say he looked the same. Haha. Seems like he's getting himself really busy with uni and other stuff. I guess everyone is =).

Funny that he would nudge me at that time, maybe coz i was the only one awake besides him lol. Still, it's really nice to hear from him again. He lightened up my gloomy studying hours. Benjamin Yap Jake Eu. You still got my name wrong. Haha =P.

Ah and Wy Keat.. i still owe you Food Ave's Oreo Milkshake. ^^"

a look on life (part I)

You know you have grown up when you wake up at 6 in the morning and think about your life so far.

It's 5.43am in the morning and i woke up.

It's very rare for me to wake up after the first alarm, let alone before. But somehow today, i only slept for 3 hours. The shortest time i have slept in a day for almost forever. Yet i guess this is the soundest sleep i got in a long long time.

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Our third exams in 3 months, Renal ICA. Won't comment on the paper, but i guess i could have studied the stuff i thought weren't important. Principles of drug treatments. I totally did not remember anything from there, i thought it was just common sense. Turns out i don't have common sense. Haha. I didn't even know how to answer the questions. Ah well.

Just a few days before my exams, i got my biology clock screwed up. Began sleeping later and later each day, until the day before exams, i slept at 10am. Wasn't planning on sleeping, but i gave up. Bound at home with an ankle sprain for 2 weeks, i have nothing to do at home besides study and turn on my computer. I could almost die at home if i study just a little bit more. I was at my threshold of studying. Any more and i'll lose my mind.

Which is why after the exams, i felt relieved. I forgot how this felt like, to have passed another hurdle. It just seems the run stretched forever, infinite hurdles before me. I did not stay for the 'feedback' session (more like answer-giving session -.-). I just could not care what the answers are. I felt.. free.

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We got our Repro ICA results right after the exams. 126 of 180 in my batch got A, 30+ got A- (according to Chia Huan's blog, i didn't check). Scary. It puts so much pressure on us to study harder, especially us who're going to PMS. I admit i was intimidated. I hadn't been doing as well as most people since i came into IMU, frankly. My results fluctuate like the temperature here. Probably cause i wasn't the consistently hardworking type.

I got my first consecutive A ever since i came into IMU.

I can't say how happy i was. This meant a lot to me. Forget the fact that probably this is just another A for those straight A students, forget the fact that maybe more than half the batch got the same thing. I studied more than i could for this semester, i tried not to slack. 2 weeks of solid studying before exams. It paid off. As i took the lift down, i celebrated my results for the first time ever in my life. It was just an A in one paper, but it meant everything to me.

You see, by the end of this semester, our matching would start. We would be needed to list down our choice of Partner Medical Schools (PMS) to do our clinical phase. Seeing that my results from Sem1 to Sem3 were inconsistent at best, this semester's exams are my last hope. If i continued my trend of A,B,B-,A-,B+ in sem3, i would have no hope to get my first 3 choice at all.

Just another one for Renal. I need just one more.

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End of Renal means the we're reaching the end of Sem4. What's left is selectives, which we ALL will be doing History of Medicine. Not much of a 'selectives', eh. But it does seem pretty interesting. Learning how medicine changed, how it came to be the knowledge we're learning today.

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continued on next post ...

Daft Hands - Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger

Ripped from sheenapunya.

Just watch =). You'll not want to miss this.

Daft Hands - Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger

To all M205-ians studying like mad for Renal ICA this Friday:

Work It Harder, Make It Better
Do It Faster, Makes Us stronger
More Than Ever Hour After
Our Work Is Never Over.

pain-ing.

Stuck in my room by a ligament in my ankle that's probably torn. This gonna take longer to heal than i thought. Lateral ankle still swollen. I could feel the water in my edematous feet yesterday when i walk around. Scary. Like it's gonna burst anytime. Lol.

Second degree lateral ankle sprain. Seems like i sprained my anterior talofibular and calcaneofibular ligament. Severity 10/10 last night. I was literally groaning on the floor. Couldn't sleep at all when the pain is overriding all my other senses, like a bad dream that won't go away. The last time i felt this bad was when i fractured my right wrist. And before that when i had a piece of my thigh's tendon excised for my eye's plastic surgery. Not fun.

Woke up a couple of times sweating. Maybe it's because of the paracetamol that i took. Didn't seem to help much. Geez. Then again they might have expired .. they were from when i had dengue and the doctors overdosed me with paracetamols.

As of today, i have skipped 1 PBL, 1 histopatho lab and 3 lectures. Can't even study since Monday with the pain in my ankle. Sigh.

Thanks for all who showed their concern, it's really heartwarming even if it's just asking how's my ankle =). Blardy sprained ankle.

ouch.

Just when i was having fun, i sprained my ankle.

Geez. Got injured during basketball practice last night. Within just 2 hours, my lateral ankle ballooned up. Could hardly even walk. Hafiz and Wei Loong said it'll hurt like hell. I thought it was just a minor sprain.. ahh me and my ego.

Not the first time i sprained my ankle tho. A pretty old injury last year i guess when i landed badly during some jump in wushu. I hope this isn't as bad as that time.. it took a couple of months to fully recover. But then that's because i keep injuring it during wushu after that. Haha, i just can't stop injuring myself -.-

Sprained ankle means i can't go for choir performance (yes! =P) tomorrow. Sorry Chia Qi. And can't go to pasar malam tonight. Sorry Wy Keat. And had to skip PBL 2 a few hours ago. Sorry PBLmates.

Hmm isn't human body the most amazing thing. Able to withstand so much torture we put ourselves to everyday. Hehe. Funny how something as small as cells can work together to sustain each other, enabling our bodies to function efficiently. Never fails to amaze me. It's like our bodies are the most efficient, self-maintaining machinery we can ever imagine.

Anyway, finally got to watch Transformers last Friday. The few movies i actually really look forward to. I still remember watching the cartoon series when i was young.. but can't seem to recall anything about it now. All i remember was my creative big brother took some Lasy pieces and made Transformers out of them. Haha. I was never the creative one in the family. Shucks.

Back to the movie.. everyone think it's the bestest movie of the year. Shoot me, but besides the transformation from various things into robots, nothing else bout it impressed me. Predictable story, cheesy jokes, boring humans. Perhaps i had extremely high expectations of it. Or maybe i just wasn't in the movie mood. Either way, the movie was good, just that i didn't feel it blew me away like it did everyone else. Yawn.

ps - from the news, it seems like hazy days are coming again. Apparently forest fires in Sumatra again. Time to drink more water everyone.. with so many people already falling sick in our batch =/

S.O.S

It's bad that Renal is a killer system, with all those physiology shit it has.

It's worse that we don't have the best lecturers to teach us those stuff.

It's worst that i slept through almost all the lectures.

Gah, save me!

a little touch on reality

Sat for Repro ICA 10 days ago. The exams itself wasn't really hard, just that i didn't expect the questions that came out. A few on risk factors, which i didn't memorise. A whole problem-based question on PCOS which we only did in PBL, which i didn't read thru either. Other than that it's ok i guess. No hope of an A tho. Hope i pass. Shucks.

Felt really weird after the exams. It's like, i don't see an end to it. I don't feel like i just jumped over another hurdle. There's no post-exam mood in me at all. I stayed home the whole weekend after the exams. Hacking away in an online game.

I was losing touch with reality. I was in denial. I can't take the exams after exams after exams. Next one just 4 weeks after the Repro exams. I really wanna just waste myself away in the game after the exams. Sigh.

Now, one week of Renal passed. Rather packed first week for me. We started training for IMU Cup too. Not that i can get a spot in the teams, but heh, it's fun to just play around.

The whole first week of Renal, i slept through almost all of the lectures. I was in no mood to learn anything, no mood to do anything at all. Guess i was sinking into depression.

So right now i'm keeping myself occupied. Maybe that way i won't be feeling depressed so much. But i do realise i'm withdrawing into myself. Detaching myself from everything. I don't want to sit for another exams.

I don't know how long i can withstand this exams after exams.

This is the way i've chosen, i can only persevere till the end. I should stop living in denial and start studying for the next exams. I will.

thoughts

It's almost 4.30am now.

Silence. Except for the whirring of the fans in my computer's CPU. The ticking of the clock on the wall. And creaking sounds in the next room. Keat How hasn't sleep yet? Hm.

A lecture note lies on my computer table while i'm typing this. Been a while since i last blogged anything i really wanted to blog about. Been a while since i even have the time to think.

Reproductive system ICA next Friday. 7, 8 weeks since Semester 4 started. I wonder where has all the time gone.

Things change. People change. Situations change. Life changes.

My younger brother has finally grown up.

My dad just started his hypertension medications.

Everyday, we kept things secret from each other. Don't ask, don't tell?

Detached.

Many thoughts on my mind. Yet no time, no time to put them down.

It's June now. A little more than half a year left to go. Feels so short, yet the destination is nowhere near.

Stress? I hvn't seen it since EoS3.

Seriously, stress would be a nice change to keep my mind occupied instead.

the myths of sleepwalking

I'm bored and have been wiki-surfing. Pretty interesting stuff i found out bout sleepwalking.

1. Contrary to popular belief, most cases of sleepwalking do not consist of walking around (without the conscious knowledge of the subject).

2. Sleepwalkers engage in their activities with their eyes open so they can navigate their surroundings, not with their eyes closed and their arms outstretched as parodied in cartoons and films. The victims' eyes may have a glazed or empty appearance and if questioned, the subject will be slow to answer and will be unable to respond in an intelligible manner.

3. Activities such as eating, bathing, masturbating, dressing, or even driving cars, whistling, having sex and committing murder have also been recorded as taking place while the subjects are technically asleep.

4. Sleepwalking is a legal defense in court, even for murder.

5. Sleepwalkers are highly suggestible. Anything they hear or see may trigger another behavior. Often something said by a person or even on a television will cause the sleepwalker to engage in the activity mentioned.

6. They may also exhibit behaviors which would be very embarrassing such as urinating in inappropriate places, trying to eat invisible foods, cleaning invisible counters, or even trying to bathe or engage in sex.

7. Often the best way to deal with a sleepwalker safely is to direct them back to their bed before they injure themselves. However, the person will often keep getting up until they have accomplished the task that has caused them to sleepwalk in the first place.

Never seen or heard of anyone sleepwalking though. But to sleepwalk must be pretty scary.. waking up in places you never knew you were at >.<

On other news, Gary just migrated to Blogger! =D

"Now you wouldn't believe me if I told you, but I could run like the wind blows."

I almost signed up for the 15km marathon yesterday that Ivy asked me to go. 15km. I couldn't even run 1km without appearing half-dead at my current fitness level. Haha. Damn.

Have always known myself as a sprinter, not a long distance runner. During my school years, i could finish the 100m dash in the top half but when it comes to just 400m, i would be crawling before i reach the finish line. Heh. Stamina is something i'm severely lacking when it comes to sports. Put me 5 minutes on the basketball court and i'll be having respiratory distress. Lol =P

Not the first time i told myself, "I should run at least once a week." But being the Captain Procrastinator as my alter ego, once a week becomes once a month, which becomes once a year. I'd be surprised if i even manage to drag myself out of bed to go jogging. Seriously, why do people get out of their bed so early in the morning to run? It's not like they're running away from the dead-but-not-so-dead having living-flesh fetish like in '28 Weeks Later' (not very fun), or running coz they're 5 minutes away from exams and they just woke up (running away from zombies is more fun, i tell you).

But i digress. Man, this phrase sounds so overused. The English language should have more synonyms to 'digress' for us to use. No, my vocab is awe-inspiring, don't you dare question it.

But i digress again. Anyway, so i came up with this all-or-nothing exercise regime to prepare for the next marathon with the Infinity Milers (somewhere in June), starting today. In fact, i just came back from my first training session. So amazed with myself. Haha. Just for recording purposes (for future comparison), here's my one hour regiment.

-05.0min. Warm-up (running down 10 floors. ok, i'm too lazy so this count as my warm-up)
00.0min. Begin run.
05.0min. Pant. Wheeze. Pant. Completed 2 rounds. Rest.
10.0min. Resume run.
15.0min. Pant. Wheeze. Pant. Completed 2 more rounds. Rest.
20.0min. Resume run.
25.0min. Wheeze. Dyspnoeic. Completed 2 more rounds. Rest.
35.0min. Begin cool-down run.
42.5min. Leg numbness. Excess lactic acid accumulation. Completed 2 more rounds. Rest.
52.5min. Resume cool-down run.
60.0min. Completed 2 more rounds. I survived! =D

One hour, 10 rounds. Not that bad la. Considering this is the first time i run in a year. Haha. Gonna run twice a week. Plan to increase at least one round each week. By end of next month i'll be able to complete a full marathon! (in my dreams, at the very least =P)

ps - guess which movie is the title quoted from? hehe

homebound

Home again. After more than 2 months i suppose. Feels far longer than that. People would have been surprised to know i didn't come home because i was homesick. More like because i wanna see my parents and grandma. Felt like wanting to see them again.

Much had happened since the last post. For one, i am officially an adult. Yay. But none of me felt 21. Yeah, i'm pretty much in denial haha. Age is just a state of mind =P. Kena 'orientated' in IMU's parking lot. Much thanks to those who went to all the trouble to torment me. Especially Jackie.. sob sob to think i trusted you haha. Really, thanks everyone =).

Sat for Endocrine exams. Frankly, this system was the slackest of all. Slack as in we are so slack. Haha. Can't blame us.. after our EoS 3 and 2 months break after that.. we need some time to get back into the studying mode. But then it really doesn't help much to have rotations right now just after Endocrine exams. Damn free. No need to study. Lots of break. Haha in other words, damn 'fei' as some of us put it.

Performed for IMU's Gala Dinner at Crowne Plaza Hotel. Forced to wear all black, plus an ugly vest and a bright red bow tie. Prof Ong even mistook Hong Lim for a waiter. Lol. Performance was bad, but the free dinner at Chilli's did more than make up for the embarrassment =P.

Went for IMU Ball at Legend Hotel. Spent much more money preparing for the ball than the ball itself >.<. Rented coat, bought new shirt, tie and pants. Borrowed a belt and shoes from my neighbour. Food was ok (no refill for anything except chinese tea! wth - i drank my champagne and some juice within the first 5 mins). Service was really bad (Jem's table next to us get all the food late haha). Performances was so-so. Games and events were painful. But company was the best and everyone looked lovely hehe =).

GP posting at Klinik Mediviron, Cheras for the past week. Observed two doctors, Dr Suan and Dr Ng. Both are very friendly to us, and taught us all they can. Seen plenty of different cases too, from total amputation of a finger to mild case of Bell's palsy. Only bad thing that happened was that i missed so many turnings everyday, we took the wrong way more times than the right way in total. Haha >.<"

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Home looked the same, minus me and my brothers. Must have been pretty quiet all these while.

Nothing has changed, yet things don't feel the same. Been almost 2 months since my younger bro went for NS. Older bro won't be back till year end. Little surprise our room would look rather neat, unused for so long.

The baby rabbits grew up. One month old now. Living independently of their mommy rabbit, who's in a cage with their daddy rabbit. At night, Mom would placed the box with baby rabbits in the living room and let them out. So cute to see them scurrying around, hopping here and there trying to explore everywhere.

Perhaps these baby rabbits liven up the atmosphere while us brothers are away. Mom seems pretty happy playing with them. Haha. Somehow i felt guilty for leaving home for so long. Shouldn't we be the ones to keep them company instead, not these rabbits?

I lay down on our double-decker bed last night. Realised that probably for the first time, i'm sleeping alone in the bedroom for so long. Quiet. No one for me to talk to. To banter with. To role-play our soft toys comprising of 3 huge ladybirds (1 handmade), 4 dinosaurs, 3 ducks plus lots more in boxes Mom kept on top of the wardrobe. Haha. Bought another snake for my younger bro and a rat for my older bro from Ikea few weeks ago (their chinese zodiac hehe).

Grandma gonna check for proteinuria on Monday. Seriously hoped it'll be negative. She's 75 now. Diabetes moderately controlled, FBS around 7.0+, BP 160+/70+.

I'm kinda afraid of the future actually. IMU rejected any pleas to change to Seremban CS, citing unavailable seats. Before long i would need to decide on my PMS. Thought i would choose Melbourne initially, but fees there had risen exponentially. Following brother's advice and considering our financial situation, most likely i'll end up further than that. Canada. We'll see. As my Dad puts it, "all we can do is just take one step at a time."

Canada sounds very very far away. Halfway round the globe. Which means i would probably come home even much lesser than my older brother now. Being so far away for so long, without the realisation that i can be home in 3-4 hours, i think i'm gonna be very homesick =(.

I should stop here. This post is getting too long haha. Till next post. Ta.

if you're reading this, read on =)

An article i found on one of the Friendster bulletins:

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We grew up watching Transformers, Thundercats, Woody Woodpecker, Smurf, Chipmunks, Mickey Mouse, Jem, Mask, Roadrunner, Ninja Turtles, Voltron, Baja Hitam, Ultraman.

Had to brush our teeths during recess at primary school? had to hold plastic cups, line up with your classmates side by side and start brushing our teeths at some open area... or maybe near some drain?? do you still remember that we had 'dentist' rooms where we had to have our teeths check? and after that asking each other the result. not to forget our 'program minum susu' in primary school.. Everybody is supposed to buy like cartons of milk that costed 30 cents.. and you would see everyone drinking it everyday...

When we get our vaccination, BCG and everybody is so afraid. the teachers who would want to punish us must use yellow rulers to hit us onour palms?? and the boys use it to show "power" when teacher is not around. that a bowl of mee soup or some soup only costed 50 cents at the school canteen... went to some sundry shop near the school or to the 'roti' man waiting outside our schools so that we can buy junk food like chickedees, mamee, ding dang with some toys in it, 'Ti Kam', ice-cream and we would play games like monopoly, uno, old maid, and all other card games like that...

another fun time would be during Pendidikan Jasmani. the boys would play football while the girls would play netball... and it would be like we were playing in the world cup... but of course. the best would be main guli, batu seremban, bottlecaps, ice-cream sticks, 'Pepsi Cola one-two-three', Cops and Robbers, main kejar- kejar duduk.. and for the not so active, those kind of 'book games' where we would use buku latihan to draw and ask our friends to play...

do you remember the ice-cream tubes which are actually ice and colouring that are sold for 10 to 20 cents.. the colourful ones.. where you usually bite off the top to glup it down...

waiting for school bus and some waiting for parents.the long wait and the rush in the morning.

what about days when we felt like doing naughty things such as folding papers so small to make 'lastik' and shoot each other... how about throwing chalks??

back then, micheal jackson was just turning white.. and still had albums coming out.. compared to CD's, we were listening to tapes that sold for RM9.90...

in computer class, we were still using black and white computer monitors.. played 'Atari'... maybe SEGA or NINTENDO...

well, are we all getting older or what?

1) if you understand what you have read and you are smiling...

2) we have friends from school that are already married...

3) we shake our heads everytime we see high school students fussing about their handphones in school..

4) we don't hang on phone with our friends for hours a day talking about nothing...

5) when we meet back with our friends from time to time, we feel excited and happy talking about old times, the funny 'adventures' or stories that we experienced as a kid..

6) last but not least, that when you read this, you would think of all the happy & sad memories that you have experienced when you were still a kid and would think of forwarding this to your old friends that you have known since forever... i'm sure they would have a huge smile on their face after reading this.....

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Made you wish you never grew up? =)

ps - got Endocrine summatives coming up in a week. Sigh..

of enthusiastic 'kids' and nostalgic me

Phew. Just got back not long ago from IMU's Open Day. Volunteered to be a tour guide for both the morning and evening sessions. Haha but i sort of 'skipped' the first tour session and helped around in CSU instead. BUT that's because i was sharing a tour group with Mustaq and yyw - they did all the talking =P. Figure i wouldn't be of much use anyway so i went to measure BMIs instead haha. Evening session led a family of 4 with May Chien. Somehow i enjoyed showing them around.. maybe it's the sense of pride that i've survived more than 1.5 years in IMU? Haha. Small matter, eh? =P. The son, Kevin was really enthusiastic and asked quite a lot. Hope they enjoyed the tour with us =). It was fun for me. Hehe.

Hm. Already going into the third week of Sem 4. Another summative in less than 2 weeks. Endocrine feels really short. Perhaps that's a good thing.

The most important of all.. late night basketball is back!! Ahah.. tho we have to use a volleyball-court-sized basketball court and it's constantly raining everyday >.<. But what the heck, i missed those basketball we play in sem 1 =). Been playing so much the past week my whole body still ached now. Ouch. But i'm happy. The good old days.. feels so nostalgic.

Come to think of it, it was thru basketball that i get to know quite a lot of people. Chia Huan, Chee Mei, Ivy, Florence, Hafiz, Jimi, Karbela, Chin Sern, Soo Peng, Wei Loong, Keat How, Lydia, Kim Chuan, Joseph, Patrick.. just to name a few. Hehe. I was the basketball rep by 'accident', and believe me, that was the first time i had to contact so many strangers. Glad we've all come a long way from there =).

Sem 4 already. 19 months since we were still fresh-faced 'normal' humans =P. Seeing those little 'kids' coming to check out IMU made me think back so much. To the day we just came in, braved thru orientation, bonded together, tried out all sorts of things, joined all sorts of sports, orientate the juniors, went on 'electives'.. looking back, IMU changed so much. Wi-Fi la, plasma screens la, the new 'fourth' floor la, ATM la, computers that work la. And those 'kids' are still complaining bout this and that. Haha.. once the construction on the new block finished, we would only have a couple of months here. Bet i won't recognize IMU when i came back from clinical phase.

8 more months. Then we'll all be apart. Somehow i already dread that day we sit for the last day of our EoS5. Because that means our time in IMU, Bukit Jalil is over.

Then we'll each have to walk down a different path in life. Maybe we'll see and hear from each other again, maybe not.

Kevin asked me whether i knew everyone in my batch. Seriously, i got to know more people in IMU than i've known in my whole life before this (that's because it's the same people in school and in class that i end up with -.-) but there are still names of my batchmates i couldn't put a face to. Sitting in the same lecture theatre for so so long, it felt funny when you still don't know the name of the girl sitting juz a few rows in front of you.

Ah well. There's still time to start learning their names =P

malaysian rap - 麻坡的华语

Lol.. funny stuff. Be proud of your slang! =P

麻坡的华语

it's not being weird, it's being unique =P

Heh took me quite long to reply Yew Wen's tag =P. Was busy with my hospital attachment at SJMC, you know, but i'll blog about that some other day. When i find the time. That i didn't spend sleeping. Maybe.

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Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

1. I'll start with the most obvious i guess. There's something different with my thumbs and big toes. Haha but then ALL of you already know anyway. I'm still finding whether there's someone else out there like me.

2. I guess i have the widest interests a human can possibly have. If i had the time and money, i would learn to do EVERYTHING. Seriously. Not studies, i mean like, breakdance, latin dance, ballroom dance, piano, guitar, drums, er hu, gu qin, xiao, ice-skating, archery, shooting, mountain-climbing, hiking, wakeboarding, diving, pottery, taekwando, wushu, tai-chi, karate, judo, aikido, ninjutsu, sign language, HTML, C++, Java, game designing, basketball, squash, tennis, badminton, swimming, football, rugby (haha!), photography, drawing, cooking, baking, flower-arranging, knitting, we are fashion design.. err. I think i went too far. Haha. Anyway if you ever need someone to accompany you to learn something, juz ask me ;).

3. I have a fear of driving. Really. Maybe it's because i haven't driven around much.. or because my sense of direction is the worst ever.. or i'm very dangerous on the road. Everytime i sit in the driver seat i'll hesitate for a second. Doesn't help that Malaysian roads are getting more and more congested each day. Sigh.

4. I do have an obsessive syndrome. I'm drawn to watching something complete by itself. Eg, you know when you defragment your hard disk, you can watch it's progress visually? I don't know why but i tend to like to watch it every now and then. And er.. when you download torrents? I always find myself checking on it every few minutes. Which is why i'm stuck to the computer like most of the day.

5. I'm very short-sighted. Not only myopic in my eyes, but in my mind's eyes as well. I can't plan anything further than tomorrow's dinner. Haha. When i finished college, i didn't even think i would end up in medicine. And now, with a year left in Bukit Jalil, i don't even have the slightest idea which uni i want to do twinning at. Perhaps i'm just a blur and clueless guy. Heh.

6. I can never get fat. Lol but i'd like to think of this as God's gift rather than a weird trait of mine =P. I realise a LOT of people would kill for this 'mutant ability' haha. I eat all sorts of fatty food, if i'm bored i would eat something, if i'm studying i would eat something, even if i'm not hungry i would still eat something. Cookies are the best invention man made! If there are cookies at home, they'll all be gone before my mom can say "Hey, you're not supposed to eat tha-" =P. I'm trying to put on some weight though. People had always said i'm too skinny. But i'm too lazy to exercise and pump weights. Sigh.

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Phew. That's 6 for you. I hereby tag:
1. My two brothers, Chye Teck and Chye Keat.
2. My two CH 'sisters', Chia Huan and Chui Han.
3. My old friends, master of disaster and Killa Kat.
4. Hehe last but not least, durian flower girl. (bend the rules a bit la =P)

to pamper or not to pamper?

Went hypermarket-hopping with my family yesterday for the New Year shopping needs. Took more than 3 hours in total to buy the stuff we need. Mommy did most of the shopping though, me, my brother and Daddy were someplace else most of the time. Somewhere with fancy gadgets and electronical stuff. Boys will always be boys =P. (bet my Mom was cursing her luck for having 3 sons and no daughters.. we're no help at all when it comes to groceries shopping haha)

Anyway my younger brother wanted to buy an MP3 player. Dad was already browsing the MP3 players on display.

Sometimes i think my Dad do pamper my younger brother a little too much (ok, i'm getting a liiiittle jealous). Haha no, really. His birthday last year Dad bought him a new camera phone O.o. Though it's not a high-end model and it was a surprise present for my brother, still, he never ask me before he bought it! For advice of course, not whether i want one myself. I still have my eyes on the W850i, and i won't settle for anything less =P.

Then couple of months ago Dad bought a digital radio for 300 bucks. Complete with MP3 playback and digital FM tuning, just like what he had always wanted. I was planning to buy one for one of his birthdays actually.. seems like there's a sudden need to find another present for my lil brother now =S.

And now, Dad bought a Sony NW-E002F with another 300 bucks because lil bro wanted an MP3 player. I was telling my bro to buy a SE Walkman phone instead, since the W710i is only 900 bucks now (he prefer a clamshell phone). Guess i wasn't persuasive enough =/.

Organic Electroluminescent Display. cool, no?

Not that i'm jealous (really!). I just thought since he wanted an MP3 player AND a new phone, it might be more 'economical' to get both at once.

Ah well. As long as my lil bro is happy =)

On another note.. i think i should be saving up money from now to buy that W850i i want. Price is dropping fast and i really want to get that phone before i leave this country next year (or not). Which means no more indulgence for me. Sob sob ='(

times like this i wish i never have to grow up

Sunday, 5th Feb

Took out the dusty old bicycle from my room to cycle. Been so long since i last rode a bike.. remember me and my brother used to cycle into the plantation along with our dad on his motorcycle hehe. Those days when we were still small.. seem so far gone now..

It's an old bike now, tho it was a rather good mountain bike. Everything still works fine it seems.. only the tyres are out of air. Daddy ordered it years ago. Could only remember when the delivery man came, me and my older brother were at home looking at the Singer van stopping outside. Everything other than that is a blur to me now =S.

Some time after Dad bought the Singer bike, we got another old bike from my cousin (i think). Dad refurbished it and spray-painted it red. Though not a mountain bike, we're happy enough =). More like i was happy enough.. since it became the bike i rode on most of the time when i was small. Hehe. My older brother on the mountain bike, me on the red bike, my younger brother with my dad on the motorcycle.. exploring the vast plantation behind our house. Don't know when we stopped doing that already.. probably coz we got too caught up with other stuff like exams and the like. Sigh.

But i digress.

For a moment i thought i had forgotten how to cycle. Wobbling on the bike-that-is-probably-too-small-for-me-now, took me a couple of seconds to realise i still can cycle =P. Went a couple of rounds in front of my house before venturing deeper into the plantation.

Cycling along the path of which i've just an inkling of memory of, i realised even after so long, home will still be home. Though they 'upgraded' the bridge and it's much more sturdier now, with metal guard rails on its sides. The houses on lower grounds behind our place haven't changed, just that the recent flood submerged their homes in mud recently but they had cleaned that up.

I took a turn, cycling on paths that wind deep deep into the plantation. It was a Sunday, and no one else can be seen or heard inside. Just me on my bike, bumping all the way among the oil palms. And for a moment i felt the serenity of being away from everything. Away in a place where nobody can disturb me, and silence is the only sound i heard.

I miss the days when i did not have to worry bout my future plans. I miss the days when i don't have to tell myself to study all the time. I miss the days when my brothers and i do things together. I miss being a small child, doing childish things.

Cycled for almost half an hour before i run out of breath. Can't even cycle all the way uphill now. Seems like i need to exercise more =/. Stopped the bike in the middle of nowhere and sat down on the ground. Stillness all around. So peaceful. I had always preferred to be here than in the city. Perhaps that's because i'd grew up here all my life after all.

Then i realised something else.

My balls are bruised. O.o

Lol. That's enough to make me stop cycling for the day =P.

home ..

Been kinda long since i update stuff here. Used to blog like every other day.. these days i just don't have the motivation to blog anymore. Too lazy perhaps?

Went Penang last week but we didn't manage to go Langkawi due to lack of interest from the rest. Still, exploring Penang with them guys and gals have been fun and fulfilling. Fulfilling in the gastronomical sense =P. All the 'famous' char kuay teow (Jackie will know best haha), ice kacang (love the peanut butter ice cream!), asam laksa, lok lok, fried popiah, hokkien prawn mee, pancakes (yum!), seafood .. we're more like 'food tourists' or something =P

Thanks to Chee Mei, Wei Cheong, Chee Liang and Sidney for showing us around =)

So now i'm finally back home in Senai with a whole month of nothing-to-do-ness ahead of me. Kinda strange i'm not as happy as i thought i would be being back home. Maybe i spent too much time away from home =/. Or it's the post-EoS-results trauma? I don't know.. something just feels out of place. Sigh.

Brought back all the rabbits.. seems like Mom's the one who's most eager to rear them. Hehe. Mom and Dad just took a few hours to build a rabbit coop (haha i don't know what else to call it) .. hope the rabbits will be more comfortable here than where i found them by the roadside. Oh yeah.. all the baby rabbits died one after another. I don't know why =(.

Update another time. Don't feel like typing much anymore.. nothing much to type anyway. To everyone, enjoy your holidays ya! =)

a short note

Just a lil note here.. we're going to Penang -> Langkawi in less than 4 hours. Yay!

Meanwhile, those of you who're bored check out this site (especially the photos section). Damn cool wei =P

Facebook me!

Ta for now. Will update when i get back =)

picture post!

Too lazy to type. One more day to freedom. The light.. at the end of the tunnel.. it's so near now.. =P. Gonna do a picture post instead la.

On the first day of EoS, my rabbit gave to me..

4 little baby rabbits!

Er. Yeah. Dirty gave birth to 4 babies. O.o. As if having two chew-happy rabbits is not hard enough. The box i sooo painstakingly made for them? They chew it up like it's the tastiest biscotti ever. Twice.

(unfinished post)

Happy New Year 2007!

view from Vista B. sob sob. why are we stuck here? =(

Kinda late but ah, hell. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! =D

ps - to any M205-ians reading this.. STOP READING BLOGS AND GO STUDY! ;)

Best of luck to everyone taking EoS3 and EoS5! We will make it thru!