To be a friend ..

Heh.. i'm blogging less and less now. Back in college days i used to blog daily sometimes. Well, back then we had so much free time. Too much, in fact =P. And we spent all those free time going to 'mamak' and 'Home' (the cybercafe we used to patron so very much). Sigh.. the good old days..

3 months. And i'm surprised i still didn't know some of my batchmates existed until recently. Ok, it's more like ashamed of myself, i admit. But it does get me wondering.. am i being ignorant? I've been sitting with them in the same lecture hall for 3 months now and i don't even know their names and how they look like?

But then again, i'm not the only one guilty of being an arrogant, ignorant bastard =P. Everyone in my batch didn't know someone from my batch is from our batch. If that make any sense at all haha. Anyway, since i posted that i gonna be a friend to everyone in my batch before i die (read the previous post), i've been trying really hard to get to know those batchmates i never knew i had. So far so good anyway, but i can already see it's not gonna be easy..

First off, friends don't just pop out overnight. And they tend to disappear when you're not looking. That's why you can't be friends to everyone i guess. Each of them expect some attention from you, and you gotta start cloning yourself if you ever hope to give each of them enough attention. Much like when i wanted to play basketball, and there's too many players around. If i called everyone out, most of them won't be able to play much, and not be happy bout it. If i don't call certain people out, they won't be happy either.. Ok, sorry for the bad analogy, but at least you guys know the dilemma i had when i'm sending the call-out for basketball now =P. Anyway, you get my drift, doncha?

Sigh .. i know, the least i could do is try. Then i realise something else. I had this problem of thinking every person i haven't know yet doesn't have a good impression of me. I know how it came about (i studied psychology ok.. don't play play =P), but i won't blog about it right now, maybe some other time. Don't know why i'm still having this feeling now. I'm human after all, i guess.

And then the problem of me being pre-judgmental. I tend to judge people even before i know them, through their behaviour that i observed. I know, doctors shouldn't be judgmental. Nobody deserved to be judged before even being given the chance. And know what, i'm glad i was proven wrong in my pre-judgment a couple of times now. Yeah, i tend to be rather negative in my pre-judgment. Glad IMU's full of such great, friendly people =).

Think i blogged too much again hehe. Well, this would make up for the past week that i didn't blog, and for next week that i might not be blogging too =P. And just when i thought there'll be no more surprises any time soon after Chui Han's birthday, lo and behold, Jem aka Jembo aka Jemboree aka Jemmy aka Alejandro(?) started a blog! O.o haha.. all rite, i think i should welcome you to the family, huh? Keep yours alive ok.. it's now your responsibility to look after your blog =P. Hmm.. the list on the left is getting longer and longer now.. (in case you hadn't notice, i've added Li Shan's, Jia Lin's and Keat How's blogs without their permission - ok, yeah, i'm trying to stalk them online to get to know more about them haha =P)

PS - summatives 1 results out tomorrow.. good luck everyone! .. yet another reason for me to blog less and study more i guess.. sigh..

TAG! .. the sevens

Sigh.. got tagged by Yih Seong aka the bonze and Kok Lim. What to do.. can't disappoint my faithful readers =P

7 Things You Plan To Do Before You Die
1. learn cooking from my mom and grandma =)
2. learn to play extreme sports (rollerblading, skateboarding, etc)
3. learn to dance.. all kinds of dance =P
4. learn to really play the bloody guitar which has been lying around since i bought it and the piano (which i really really want to learn but didn't get the chance to) and heck, every single musical instrument la
5. be friends with everyone i meet (let's start with my batchmates first..)
6. made lives breathe easier because i lived
7. find love, fall in love, live happily ever after =)

7 Things I Could Do
1. study.. (well, like, duh..)
2. eat more (yeah, i know i need to gain some weight)
3. play more basketball/volleyball at nite
4. put more effort in everything i do (TC, choir, etc)
5. sleep at home
6. sleep in the lecture hall
7. sleep in the library

7 Celebrity Crushes
1. erm..
2. erm..
3. erm..
4. erm..
5. erm..
6. erm..
7. i don't wanna tell =P

7 Often Repeated Words
1. haha (i noticed i type this word a LOT ^^ .. and i laugh at every little thing too..)
2. wat the hell..
3. riggghhttt...
4. hungry wei..
5. do you want to eat? (complete with hand gesture)
6. zzzzzzzzzz..
7. zzzzzzzzzzzzz..

7 Traits I Look For In The Opposite Sex
1. a sense of humour
2. cheerful
3. able to take care of herself
4. enjoy being outdoors as well as indoors
5. un-diva-like (not complaining about every little thing)
6. sporting and open-minded
7. faithful and sincere

My 7 Tags Go To:
1. me bro (i know you're reading my blog =P)
2. Prasad (did anyone tagged you yet?)
3. Li Shun (harlow..)
4. Yong Chen (come on, i'm the 2nd to tag you already)
5. Yee Pei (i know..EoS5 coming..but then..)
6. Shin Yin (hey, i don't even know your blog address.. ^^")
7. Dr TS (yeah, sifu or not oso kena. Don't think can escape =P)

To be a doctor ..

This week is BS week. Behavioural Science i mean. So far we learned bout verbal and non-verbal communication, how people learn, what is motivation, and some psychology shit like that. And the more lectures i sit thru (or sleep thru =P), the more things i learned about being a doctor that i never knew. I learned that a doctor have to watch what/how he talk/act the whole time while dealing with patients. I learned that a doctor shouldn't see a patient as a disease entity; he's a PERSON with disease. And i learned that being a doctor ain't just curing diseases. It's curing people.

Ask me what my ambition was 10 years ago, and i'll say "Polis!" without a thought. Ask me again 5 years ago, it's "Engineer la.. dunno wat engineer but engineer la..". Now, i'm on the road to be a doctor. What an indecisive person i am..

Anyway, what i wanted to say is, i never dreamed of becoming a doctor until, like, after i came into IMU? haha =P. Some people wanted to be a doctor for a name, money, status or they just wanted to help others (tho i sincerely doubt even half of all the doctors will still be doctors if the pay was like, peanuts and nobody respects doctors..). Me? I entered IMU because i was BLUR. BLUR because i didn't know what i wanted. BLUR because i was a naive and ignorant boy. BLUR because i was blind and deaf, not seeing nor hearing everything that's happening around me.

I really don't know what happened to me since i entered IMU, but i do know i changed the moment i realised i was gonna be a doctor. Grew up, maybe. Maybe i realised i won't be the boy who only cares bout friends and games and outings anymore. I can't be that boy anymore. Once i leave IMU, i'll have to take care of other people for the rest of my life. I'm not looking forward to that with a sigh; it's with a smile.

"To know that one life has breathed easier because you lived; that is to have succeeded." I knew i heard that before somewhere along the 19 years of trail i left behind me. But now it means so much more to me.

Post-holidays pre-summatives blues..

It's been a week. A week since my family went back, and everyone else came back. A week since lectures start, and i start taking naps in the auditorium again. And ever since then it's been raining, every single day. Sort of suits my mood for the past week..

Rains. Always welcomed them, especially when i'm in bed with a thick blanket. It does make me feel a little bit gloomy sometimes. But hey, you gotta admit it, feeling happy everyday does get tiring too. There are days like these when i rather be feeling a little down. When i don't want to do anything else but snuggle in my bed and not care bout a thing in the world.

Yeah.. did nothing i had these past few days. Getting lethargic since holidays ended.. don't even get the urge to go down and play basketball anymore. Every day juz can't wait for the lectures to end so that i can go home and rot. Nothing much to look forward to either.. and i don't want to get my Summative 1 results..

And i seem to develop some kind of allergic reaction to Meriab.. a mere touch of that damned book puts me into a coma for 4 hours straight. Only, like, 6 weeks to Summative 2. I'll have to try to study again this weekend.. Gotta.. resist.. it... zzzzz.....