pain-ing.

Stuck in my room by a ligament in my ankle that's probably torn. This gonna take longer to heal than i thought. Lateral ankle still swollen. I could feel the water in my edematous feet yesterday when i walk around. Scary. Like it's gonna burst anytime. Lol.

Second degree lateral ankle sprain. Seems like i sprained my anterior talofibular and calcaneofibular ligament. Severity 10/10 last night. I was literally groaning on the floor. Couldn't sleep at all when the pain is overriding all my other senses, like a bad dream that won't go away. The last time i felt this bad was when i fractured my right wrist. And before that when i had a piece of my thigh's tendon excised for my eye's plastic surgery. Not fun.

Woke up a couple of times sweating. Maybe it's because of the paracetamol that i took. Didn't seem to help much. Geez. Then again they might have expired .. they were from when i had dengue and the doctors overdosed me with paracetamols.

As of today, i have skipped 1 PBL, 1 histopatho lab and 3 lectures. Can't even study since Monday with the pain in my ankle. Sigh.

Thanks for all who showed their concern, it's really heartwarming even if it's just asking how's my ankle =). Blardy sprained ankle.

ouch.

Just when i was having fun, i sprained my ankle.

Geez. Got injured during basketball practice last night. Within just 2 hours, my lateral ankle ballooned up. Could hardly even walk. Hafiz and Wei Loong said it'll hurt like hell. I thought it was just a minor sprain.. ahh me and my ego.

Not the first time i sprained my ankle tho. A pretty old injury last year i guess when i landed badly during some jump in wushu. I hope this isn't as bad as that time.. it took a couple of months to fully recover. But then that's because i keep injuring it during wushu after that. Haha, i just can't stop injuring myself -.-

Sprained ankle means i can't go for choir performance (yes! =P) tomorrow. Sorry Chia Qi. And can't go to pasar malam tonight. Sorry Wy Keat. And had to skip PBL 2 a few hours ago. Sorry PBLmates.

Hmm isn't human body the most amazing thing. Able to withstand so much torture we put ourselves to everyday. Hehe. Funny how something as small as cells can work together to sustain each other, enabling our bodies to function efficiently. Never fails to amaze me. It's like our bodies are the most efficient, self-maintaining machinery we can ever imagine.

Anyway, finally got to watch Transformers last Friday. The few movies i actually really look forward to. I still remember watching the cartoon series when i was young.. but can't seem to recall anything about it now. All i remember was my creative big brother took some Lasy pieces and made Transformers out of them. Haha. I was never the creative one in the family. Shucks.

Back to the movie.. everyone think it's the bestest movie of the year. Shoot me, but besides the transformation from various things into robots, nothing else bout it impressed me. Predictable story, cheesy jokes, boring humans. Perhaps i had extremely high expectations of it. Or maybe i just wasn't in the movie mood. Either way, the movie was good, just that i didn't feel it blew me away like it did everyone else. Yawn.

ps - from the news, it seems like hazy days are coming again. Apparently forest fires in Sumatra again. Time to drink more water everyone.. with so many people already falling sick in our batch =/

S.O.S

It's bad that Renal is a killer system, with all those physiology shit it has.

It's worse that we don't have the best lecturers to teach us those stuff.

It's worst that i slept through almost all the lectures.

Gah, save me!

a little touch on reality

Sat for Repro ICA 10 days ago. The exams itself wasn't really hard, just that i didn't expect the questions that came out. A few on risk factors, which i didn't memorise. A whole problem-based question on PCOS which we only did in PBL, which i didn't read thru either. Other than that it's ok i guess. No hope of an A tho. Hope i pass. Shucks.

Felt really weird after the exams. It's like, i don't see an end to it. I don't feel like i just jumped over another hurdle. There's no post-exam mood in me at all. I stayed home the whole weekend after the exams. Hacking away in an online game.

I was losing touch with reality. I was in denial. I can't take the exams after exams after exams. Next one just 4 weeks after the Repro exams. I really wanna just waste myself away in the game after the exams. Sigh.

Now, one week of Renal passed. Rather packed first week for me. We started training for IMU Cup too. Not that i can get a spot in the teams, but heh, it's fun to just play around.

The whole first week of Renal, i slept through almost all of the lectures. I was in no mood to learn anything, no mood to do anything at all. Guess i was sinking into depression.

So right now i'm keeping myself occupied. Maybe that way i won't be feeling depressed so much. But i do realise i'm withdrawing into myself. Detaching myself from everything. I don't want to sit for another exams.

I don't know how long i can withstand this exams after exams.

This is the way i've chosen, i can only persevere till the end. I should stop living in denial and start studying for the next exams. I will.

thoughts

It's almost 4.30am now.

Silence. Except for the whirring of the fans in my computer's CPU. The ticking of the clock on the wall. And creaking sounds in the next room. Keat How hasn't sleep yet? Hm.

A lecture note lies on my computer table while i'm typing this. Been a while since i last blogged anything i really wanted to blog about. Been a while since i even have the time to think.

Reproductive system ICA next Friday. 7, 8 weeks since Semester 4 started. I wonder where has all the time gone.

Things change. People change. Situations change. Life changes.

My younger brother has finally grown up.

My dad just started his hypertension medications.

Everyday, we kept things secret from each other. Don't ask, don't tell?

Detached.

Many thoughts on my mind. Yet no time, no time to put them down.

It's June now. A little more than half a year left to go. Feels so short, yet the destination is nowhere near.

Stress? I hvn't seen it since EoS3.

Seriously, stress would be a nice change to keep my mind occupied instead.

the myths of sleepwalking

I'm bored and have been wiki-surfing. Pretty interesting stuff i found out bout sleepwalking.

1. Contrary to popular belief, most cases of sleepwalking do not consist of walking around (without the conscious knowledge of the subject).

2. Sleepwalkers engage in their activities with their eyes open so they can navigate their surroundings, not with their eyes closed and their arms outstretched as parodied in cartoons and films. The victims' eyes may have a glazed or empty appearance and if questioned, the subject will be slow to answer and will be unable to respond in an intelligible manner.

3. Activities such as eating, bathing, masturbating, dressing, or even driving cars, whistling, having sex and committing murder have also been recorded as taking place while the subjects are technically asleep.

4. Sleepwalking is a legal defense in court, even for murder.

5. Sleepwalkers are highly suggestible. Anything they hear or see may trigger another behavior. Often something said by a person or even on a television will cause the sleepwalker to engage in the activity mentioned.

6. They may also exhibit behaviors which would be very embarrassing such as urinating in inappropriate places, trying to eat invisible foods, cleaning invisible counters, or even trying to bathe or engage in sex.

7. Often the best way to deal with a sleepwalker safely is to direct them back to their bed before they injure themselves. However, the person will often keep getting up until they have accomplished the task that has caused them to sleepwalk in the first place.

Never seen or heard of anyone sleepwalking though. But to sleepwalk must be pretty scary.. waking up in places you never knew you were at >.<

On other news, Gary just migrated to Blogger! =D

"Now you wouldn't believe me if I told you, but I could run like the wind blows."

I almost signed up for the 15km marathon yesterday that Ivy asked me to go. 15km. I couldn't even run 1km without appearing half-dead at my current fitness level. Haha. Damn.

Have always known myself as a sprinter, not a long distance runner. During my school years, i could finish the 100m dash in the top half but when it comes to just 400m, i would be crawling before i reach the finish line. Heh. Stamina is something i'm severely lacking when it comes to sports. Put me 5 minutes on the basketball court and i'll be having respiratory distress. Lol =P

Not the first time i told myself, "I should run at least once a week." But being the Captain Procrastinator as my alter ego, once a week becomes once a month, which becomes once a year. I'd be surprised if i even manage to drag myself out of bed to go jogging. Seriously, why do people get out of their bed so early in the morning to run? It's not like they're running away from the dead-but-not-so-dead having living-flesh fetish like in '28 Weeks Later' (not very fun), or running coz they're 5 minutes away from exams and they just woke up (running away from zombies is more fun, i tell you).

But i digress. Man, this phrase sounds so overused. The English language should have more synonyms to 'digress' for us to use. No, my vocab is awe-inspiring, don't you dare question it.

But i digress again. Anyway, so i came up with this all-or-nothing exercise regime to prepare for the next marathon with the Infinity Milers (somewhere in June), starting today. In fact, i just came back from my first training session. So amazed with myself. Haha. Just for recording purposes (for future comparison), here's my one hour regiment.

-05.0min. Warm-up (running down 10 floors. ok, i'm too lazy so this count as my warm-up)
00.0min. Begin run.
05.0min. Pant. Wheeze. Pant. Completed 2 rounds. Rest.
10.0min. Resume run.
15.0min. Pant. Wheeze. Pant. Completed 2 more rounds. Rest.
20.0min. Resume run.
25.0min. Wheeze. Dyspnoeic. Completed 2 more rounds. Rest.
35.0min. Begin cool-down run.
42.5min. Leg numbness. Excess lactic acid accumulation. Completed 2 more rounds. Rest.
52.5min. Resume cool-down run.
60.0min. Completed 2 more rounds. I survived! =D

One hour, 10 rounds. Not that bad la. Considering this is the first time i run in a year. Haha. Gonna run twice a week. Plan to increase at least one round each week. By end of next month i'll be able to complete a full marathon! (in my dreams, at the very least =P)

ps - guess which movie is the title quoted from? hehe